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Thursday, October 20, 2005

haix...m i jus such a failure?dun u tink so...i jus cant get e ting rite myself...nt tt difficult wat jus open yr mouth n sae lor...iznt it easy like 123?angry then angry lor...gotta make yr choice sum dae also wat so no pt nt saein aniting nw...well tts wat exactly i jus did...dunno wat 2 do n then cant make up my decision then wat happen...i left my gd fren there wen i m suppose 2 go wif her lor...wat kinda fren m i?do i still hav ani face left 2 c her?i m jus so ashamed of myself...y cant i jus make up my mind n either choose 1 n nt hang on...dunno wat 2 do n act blur...then in front of another party muz act happy...wat's tis manx zh?wat ever iz e prob wif u?make up yr mind lah...u like tt will hurt ppl de lor...i m jus so sad...though u might nt b sad bud then..i...i realli dunno wat 2 sae liao cos i jus feel tt i m such a failure..it's jus a simple ting then next time how?gotta make even bigger decisions lor..cant jus leave it there like tt mah rite?haix..sry...so sry buddy didnt mean 2 do it tis way...bud i m jus nth...jus a scardy cat who does nt dare 2 stand up 4 my rites n tings like tt...i cant help it bud feel guilty deep inside mi 4 doin such a ting 2dae though it's nt tt serious...bud wen i turn my back upon u i can sum wat feel a sense of disappointment in u...i wasnt happy either wen i went wif them bud i jus dunno how 2 tell them... so sry bout it 2dae...hope it didnt realli spoil yr mood 2dae bud it did spoil my mood 2dae...e image of mi turnin my back upon u n lookin at yr face makes mi realli sad...till nw i m still tinkin bout it...i dunno wat's goin on bud i jus realli feel sad tt i cant make my decision given such a small matter...mayb watever i sae nw might nt b ani use lah bud then jus hope wen u read tis blog dun sad hor...jus tellin u how i feel rite at tis moment...wont keep aniting frm u jus as how u didnt keep aniting frm mi...=)

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