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Wednesday, September 28, 2005

u muz begin 2 tink of yrself as becomin e person u wan 2 b...well mayb it's quite true lor.. sumtimes ppl r like tt wen tings doesnt happen u will nt wake up frm yr beautiful dreams n continue nt realisin tt in yr character there r sum mistakes..there r times wen ppl gt 2 sumhow wake u up though it might nt sound nice bud no choice lah if i was e person i definitely will accept n change lor..bud then sae liao then still like tt i also cant help it mah rite?haix..took back my prelim results then pathetically bad lor..then i noe my own limits lah mayb might consider poly liao lor nw..though i wanna do my family proud bud if i m like tis then wat can i do rite?u all get so gd so wat i can onli do tis best wat if u lookin into sum1 else then different mah i m zh nt other ppl ok?!so pls..i m alreadi tryin my best 2 work hard le who dun wanna c excellent results includin mi lor jus tt it seems like i m doin my best bud then i jus cant stop myself frm bein a little lazy at times n ppl's influencial power r quite strong do u noe tt?i jus cant stop myself frm tinkin heh..how did u do so well?y arent i u jus wat's e matter wif mi?i noe i m jus controllin my tears sumhow cos it will do mi no gd if ppl starts askin mi wat's e matter wif u n i will definitely starts scoldin them de..which i do nt wanna do..wanna slack also cannot then study also like so sian..then hav remedials,lectures,tuitions n revisions all suddenly cumin out..although i noe tis r expected bud mayb i cant take it all so much at 1 swoop ba..lookin at our class's smiles on their faces wen they did quite ok i m like y cant i smile 2 jus give it a shot n put out watever u can do lor..then after O's can play liao..yup..tts wat i m exactly gonna do try my damn best nw i dun care le i gt 2 do my best then my frens, family wont b disappointed wif mi or else i will nv ever 4give myself le.. though i sound serious bud i meant wat i meant..in sch i hav 2 b happy n smile always yeah its true bud i cant help it wen i cant stand all tis pressure n needed a hug most bud no1 iz out there 4 mi..who can i turn 2 then?y iz tis happenin?i cant explain 2 myself 2 so dun ask mi cos i wont b able 2 ans u ppl out there...ani ideas 2 help mi galgal or boiboi?haha..gt 2 buck up sumhow!!

theperson im loving (:
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